I can't believe this. They're completely cutting Pennsylania Governor's School. After the fucking application process. We all put a ton of work into putting together transcripts, resumes, and writing 2 essays. I spent a lot of time on my application. I heard so many good things about it, and I got my hopes up about going. I wasn't guaranteed to get in, but as one of the best math/science students in my school, I was fairly confident. Results were supposed to be mailed in less than a month. This was my opportunity to pretty much secure admission into Carnegie Mello, and possibly the other colleges I'm looking at. And more than that, it was a chance to get away from here and spend 5 weeks with a bunch of people who know nothing about me other than that I am good at science. I could completely start over, and if people didn't like me there, so what, I would be leaving. It was exactly what I needed.

But now it's gone. The state cut all the funding. I can't even describe how angry I am.

And, because apparently the world hates me, people were completely incompetent today, which is just what I need. When I can do 3 times as much work as you in the same amount of time, that shows you're doing something wrong. Or, you know, when I tell you to look confused, actually change your facial expression so that our video project makes sense. Or pay attention at least once in the class so you know when the fucking test is! I can't deal with stupidity on a regular basis, how am I expected to deal with it today?

I came home after school and explained everything to my mom, and then I finally got a moment of peace and privacy. 45 seconds later, she knocks on my door for some useless reason, sees that I'm upset and asks "What's wrong?" Really? Really??? Did my obvious anger and disappoinment over losing governor's school and my explanation of people's idiocy not seem to justify being upset? Really.